I’m staring at myself in the mirror again. I like what I see this time. It’s Alyce that’s smiling back at me. She’s giving me that “knowing” smile, thinking that I’ve got this. Personally, I’m unsure. At least I feel that way. I understand that I’m extremely hypocritical and judgmental of myself. I take a deep breath, but, Alyce looks so cute, staring back. I kind of just want to pinch her cheeks and tell her to stop being bad, to stop thinking naughty, dirty thoughts. “Kristen,” she communicates with me telepathically, “you’re so lame if you keep holding back and restraining yourself. You need to be free.”
Then, in the back of my mind, the other girl, Jane, becomes similar to my conscience, though it’s really Jane talking to me. Alyce disappears with a smile and Jane takes over. I barely blink before I’m even able to see the transformation. Jane’s moody. She’s not liking what she sees and agrees with me. Black eyeliner it is, my armor which is like self-defense. I rarely want to cry when I wear it. Jane hates crying. She hates a lot of things, she resides within me.
"Just wear it, and toughen up," she instructs.
I apply it slowly, making big dark circles around my eyes.
I hope I’m not as vulnerable as Smooth guy thinks. I sigh and talk to myself. “This will have to do.”
my friends:omg i have a crush on this guy but he has a girlfriend but i think they're going to break up and omg should i ask if he wants to go out with me or will that be weird because he has a girlfriend ugh
me:whats the meaning of life whats outside our galaxy why are we here what happens after we die
“I was given the ‘weird’ badge but I think everybody’s weird and that’s the key to it. We should celebrate our individuality, not be embarrassed or ashamed of it. We all have idiosyncrasies, tics that are obsessive-compulsive. People do themselves a great disservice by not allowing themselves to see who they really are because they are afraid.”—Johnny Depp (via subconsciousexperience)